Hello Kitty, Goodbye Wales

The kids LOVED Hello Kitty!! 

Ok, ok, so I said I'd blog a bit more about my trip to Liverpool last week. The main reason we went up there was because it was my daughter's 4th birthday while we were away so, we held a party for her & we also invited our family (which is pretty big!) & a whole host of friends that we haven't seen for a long time. (Oh - & Hello Kitty came too!) I haven't been home since early December 2010 & I was sooo ill when I went up there last that I didn't see a soul - apart from my immediate family that is.


There are so many people that have contacted me since my diagnosis, I knew I wouldn't have time to see everyone individually, so a 'get together/reunion' type party seemed like a great idea.
And it was! There was a brilliant turn out & my little girl loved every minute of it! So did I!


I should say here, that to all of you that turned up, I am so grateful that you did & thank you so much for all of Laiken's lovely gifts - & for my gifts too! It certainly was a day to remember & I'll never forget those of you that have supported me through these tough times. I finally feel like my depression is lifting & it's all because of you lot!! (So if I turn back into the party girl lunatic that you remember, it's all your fault!!)


Anyway, my fab 'little' sister Leah, took Laiken home with her after the party had finished, that was so good of her! It gave me time to catch up with some of my best friends & by about 7.30pm (feeling slightly worse for wear!), there were four of us left: Kerry, Michelle, Nicola & myself.


These three women are my fab friends that I have known like, FOREVER & even though at times we all got a little bit emotional, I was just so happy to spend time with them. We chatted like we'd never been apart, laughed, cried, danced (to our favourite Old Skool tunes!), sang & generally had a brilliant time; ladies, we will definitely be seeing a lot more of each other when I move home for good! (Stop crying Michelle!) ......That's how you know who your true friends are though isn't it? Their love is unconditional; it doesn't matter that we haven't physically seen each other for such a long time (although we chat on the phone & through Facebook etc); we picked up from where we left off (seems like yesterday!) & it was just like old times & I loved every minute of it!


All day at the party, I was telling people that I was going to have my reconstruction done in Wales & then 'hang around' for six months afterwards (at my surgeons request) but, by the time I got back to my sister's house later that evening (about 9.30pm cos I still get really tired at the moment & I'd been up since 7.30am!), I just knew that my heart was no longer in Wales & that I needed to return home as soon as possible.


After having a great time with my sister, her partner & my gorgeous niece & nephew & the rest of my family & friends, spending time with my girlfriends was just the straw that broke the camels back. I love them, my family & all of my other friends so much, that the thought of leaving them all behind to travel nearly 200 miles away was breaking my heart.


At 11pm on Tuesday evening, after much soul searching & agonising, I finally broke down in tears to my sister & cried like a baby!


And so, the next day when we were in the car, leaving Liverpool, I spoke to my parents & said I'd changed my mind - I wanted to get back ASAP.
My mum & dad have been absolutely brilliant over the past few years, they've supported all of the decisions I've made (such as going back to work full time, filing for bankruptcy, leaving my daughter's dad, moving house, the list goes on!) & this time was no exception.
So, the decision was made & already, we are looking for two suitable properties in Liverpool & as soon as we can get back there, we'll be gone!


Hang on a minute: this blog post was supposed to be more about my trip & all I've done is just explained in a bit more detail why I'm leaving South Wales! Sorry! I have a one track mind at the moment! It's all about getting home! Even if there were riots whilst I was there! (Which I thought were pointless & disgusting but hey, we could chat about that all day couldn't we? And this blog is about me! Not mindless idiots that choose to sh*t on their own doorsteps, the d*ckheads!)


Ok, so what I'm going to do in the next few days is update my 'Special Mentions' page cos, there are so many people that I'd like to pay tribute to or, give a little mention to so, keep your eye out for that! That's where I'm going to put all of my 'Thank You's!' And in the future, whenever I want to say something specific to anyone, I think that's where I'll be posting it.


Anyway! Exciting stuff now! 
I've already mentioned in my last blog post, Home Is Where The Heart Is, that my 'Guest of Honour' at the party  was none other than Annie, author of the fantastic blog,  Curly Hair & False Eyelashes! (Even though all the kids had gone & it was really quiet by the time she arrived - actually, that was very well played Annie! Ha ha, you're not soft are you? Arriving when about 30 over excited kids had gone!! I'm joking by the way!)
I was so happy to meet Annie & if you visit her blog on Monday, 15th August, that's where I'll be! Guest blogging on her blog! I've never done a guest post before! And I'm a little bit nervous to be honest!


So, if you all pile over there on Monday, anytime after 9am I believe, you'll be able to read my post about Annie & me.


Until then, I want to leave you with this song that I heard on BBC Radio 2 yesterday &, it's been stuck in my head ever since! 

I'm sure you'll recognise the tune!  And, it just seems like an appropriate song for the moment! And, there are some funny lyrics in it! One or two of them definitely strike a chord with me! But, the main message is 'Sometimes you wanna go - where everybody knows your name!'
That's what it felt like on Saturday in Liverpool - like I was in a comfortable place where EVERYBODY knew my name!


So I'll leave you with it & hope to see you all on Monday, albeit in a different part of Cyberspace.
Wonder what it's like over there?
I'll let you know!
Enjoy the rest of your weekend! 


Love Chez. xx